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  • im a drummer/lover/believer. i want to sit behind a drum set, singing for the rest of my life, i want to learn guitar, piano, violin, etc... i believe in God, Jesus, the holy spirit, and that the bible is true. and i try my hardest to be the best christian i can being human. TNdrumr

life in short

thoughts of a drumr/lovr/believr

Friday, 28 August 2009

  • i've done all i can... so one last goodbye...... finally..... this door is closed. and not to open again...

    you'll never know how much i loved you. but it no longer matters.
    just remember the determination you felt in the end, the desire to take control and not give up. use that. live your dreams. and never give into the world. i love you, but i'm gone.

    to anyone else, i'm opening a new xanga page. i'm no longer looking back. and motivating myself again. so goodbye my friends. i may add some of you again. but only those i feel respect or friendship towards.

    God save me!

  • im sorry it happened this way...

    i give up..... time to disappear, there is now to much at stake..... im so sorry it went like this..........
    but what could i do...?

Thursday, 27 August 2009

  • i am falling down the rabbit hole

    i am a dreamer. that's all there is to it. that's who i am, what i do. and i am to stubborn to let go of these dreams. i will fight anyone that stands in my way, and leave behind those who laugh at the idea. i will achieve everything i have planned.... somehow. so first step. keep writing, learning music, and meeting other people with my passions.
    to all of those who say its to hard, to those who say i can't do it, and those who tried to steer my down another path. have fun living your boring safe life. cause I'm saying goodbye and carrying on. alone if i must. for now.


    it's in these times of pain and hardship that drive me to a better life, to push harder as life pushes with extra force. so bring on the pain, the hurt, and the suffering. your only enabling me.

    now to get someone else involved....

  • where did this all come from?

    this is all to damn confusing....

Wednesday, 26 August 2009

  • my head is spinning...

    i honestly don't know what the heck is around each turn and for the first time in a long time i don't think i wanna know.... i just want to start living simple. but at the same time i want more... meaning hardships. grrr. what to do?

Tuesday, 25 August 2009

Monday, 24 August 2009

  • Currently
    Altitude
    By Autumn [Netherlands]
    see related

    your killing me....

    i try so damn hard to move on, but your always a glimpse here and a glimpse there... and every time i see you in pain i want to run to your side... but i cant... i left everything up to you... and you've done nothing... so that simple fact should have helped me leave......... but why do i still mourn you...? DAMN IT.... i resolve that i am moving on, have a plan for it all... but then you spin my head off and whisper things in my head from miles away.......... how the hell do i turn off the compassion and the love in my heart off for a little while just to take a break from this pain....?



    when i was with you i believed that, even though we didn't have all the qualities i looked for, you and i could still work... but if you prove me wrong, and trust me there isn't much time left for you, then i'm turning back, retracing my resolve and sticking to it. if you really love me, if you do, REALLY love me, truly.... then do what it takes...... cause if you don't, then i give up.

    my door is open till i can't take the pain anymore. and possibly for the last time. your move..............

Saturday, 22 August 2009

Friday, 21 August 2009

Wednesday, 19 August 2009

  • Currently
    Slania
    By Eluveitie
    Inis Mona
    see related
    run back to whats comfortable, all of you who can't fight back. get  back in your boat and sail for cover, cause a storm is coming and we will all be in the middle of it. stay in your boat, because you think its safe, but not me. im out of the boat, ill walk on water, and i dare you to. or just hop boat to boat, never really taking a chance. convince yourself that life is to hard to take risks. but the way i see it, life is to short to sit by when if you really want to live youll walk on water, and brave the storm clouds towering in the sky. so run. get in your boat and cower in fear, but i got the big man upstairs on my side. and he said jump, follow Him even though its hard. and while you look like your some big shot running your on massive vessel. i'll be walking on water, living a life you can only dream of now. cause your safe, so why should you care if your life doesn't really count for much. cause your comfortable.
    just know that when the storm is over, i'll be miles ahead. taking the world by surprise, knowing that i can't regret sitting back and doing nothing.

  • if the ripples we make today, are the waves we feel tomorrow, then i got a tsunami  on its way.
        good or bad, idk. maybe it'll wash away this life, and maybe i'll be above the height of it.

               we find our way around the city, wondering if someone new will crash into our life
                    hoping that just one more time we will find that connection,
     to find only a feeling, but that feeling is enough, enough to sustain you...
            at least for a little while. but what happens when it fades, when you realize its not right
      you begin to walk the same old city, through the same old crowds.
    you search for new in old...but you can't...

    i think its time for a change....


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Tuesday, 18 August 2009

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